This is where I am going to die

JADE Goody was rushed back into hospital in agony yesterday and wept: -This is where I’m going to die.

The Big Brother star, 27, clutched an oxygen mask to her face as medics carried her in on a stretcher after her condition deteriorated.

Mum-of-two Jade, who just a week earlier had walked down the aisle as a bride, looked desperately ill and pale after spending the day in screaming agony

She was said to be in a 'very serious way', with doctors seemingly unable to control the pain from her cancer.

Jade was taken by ambulance with a police escort from her bed at a hospice to the Royal Marsden Hospital in Chelsea, West London.

Jade's spokesman Max Clifford said today: -She said all she wanted to do is see the boys but she doesn’t want to see them if she is in pain.

-We are hoping she is going to get to go home - that is what she wants. She just wants to be at home with the kids and with her husband Jack Tweed.

Jade was told yesterday that she needed further surgery, but Mr Clifford said he was not sure whether or not it would go ahead today.

-What they had said to her was that we think you need surgery to remove the blockage in the bowel which is causing this pain.

-Then the ambulance came and took her to the Royal Marsden and the surgery didn’t happen. I think what they are going to do is look at her today and see what they can do for her.

A hospital source revealed: -It was an emergency transfer as the Marsden is the only place that can treat her condition.

-At the hospital she said, ‘This is where I’m going to die’.

-She was in a lot of pain and very distressed and emotional.
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-Because of the drugs she was sometimes slurring her words and saying incoherent sentences. She was shouting because of the pain.

-She saw familiar faces. It was so emotional as she realised it was the last time she is going to see them.

-Her prognosis is two to four weeks — but there are worries that she won’t make it to the weekend.

-One person came with her, but no family. She is extremely weak now, she can’t walk. All they can do is manage her pain.

It is possible that she won’t get to die at home because of the acuteness of her pain.

-Her condition can’t be treated at home because of the drugs she needs — so it is likely that there will be a mercy run. It means when she has literally hours left she will be driven home to die.

Dressed in a floral nightie and wrapped in a bright red blanket, Jade’s eyes remained tight shut as medics from the Thames Valley Ambulance Service pushed her stretcher through the hospital doors at 5.10pm yesterday.

Mr Clifford said: -It’s incredibly upsetting and very serious.

-Doctors and nurses at the hospice have done everything they can — but they just can’t seem to get her pain under control.

-She’s just been on the phone to me, sobbing and in complete agony. The pain is all around her tummy. It’s absolutely horrible to hear a young girl in so much pain.

-She’s very frightened. She was sobbing on the phone to me.

-She said, ‘Why can’t they get me out of all this pain?’. It’s heartbreaking.

-Especially as over the weekend she was actually feeling a lot brighter. She was looking forward to going home and organising the christening of herself and her two boys.

The christening of sons Bobby, five, and Freddie, four, is set for this Saturday.

Mr Clifford said: -It will be a local church, then a party for all the children.

-She wants to make it as big a party as possible. Jade is also going to get christened herself. She wanted to do that.

On Friday Jade went to the St Clare Hospice in Harlow, near her Essex home, for the weekend after suffering terrifying hallucinations.

It emerged they were caused by a district nurse giving her the 'wrong blend' of medication.

Mr Clifford said: -Jade was basically given the wrong cocktail of drugs. It’s a delicate balance and this nurse just got it wrong.

-It was nobody’s fault — apparently it’s quite easy to do. But that’s why she was taken to the hospice, so doctors there could get her on the right balance of drugs and get her pain under control.

As she left her home for the hospice, Jade was pictured shouting at a neighbour: -I’ll be dead in a month.

She had been bedridden since marrying her boyfriend Jack, 21, in a moving ceremony eight days ago, which left her exhausted and in agony.

But a friend revealed that she did not like the hospice.

The source said: -Jade wanted to get out as soon as possible.

-She said she would rather be at the hospital than in there. She has been in a lot of pain but is not ready to give up the fight yet.

Mr Clifford said last week that Jade, who had cervical cancer which then spread, does not know how long she had left to live.

He added: -She knows it’s just weeks. No one can say when exactly. She is being very brave.

But last night he denied her admission to hospital was a setback in her battle against the disease.

He said: -It’s a continuing process but we hope they will be able to get things under control.

Hubby Jack, who is on early release from an 18-month jail term for assault, has been told the electronic tag he has to wear will be removed when the worst happens.

Prison officials will either rush to Jack’s family home to remove it, or he will be driven to a local police station to have it taken off.

Jack is currently staying with his mum and arrived back there with pals at around 6.50pm last night — just ten minutes before his night curfew deadline.

The house is in Buckhurst Hill, Essex — a 20-minute drive from Jade’s home in Upshire.

Earlier Jack had taken Bobby to the Carling Cup football final at Wembley Stadium.

Little brother Freddie was at nearby Wembley Arena with their dad, Jade’s ex Jeff Brazier — who took him backstage as he hosted the X Factor tour.

Last night Mr Clifford told how Jade’s bravery has won her admiration from across the globe — with chat show giants Oprah Winfrey and Larry King desperate to interview her.