Jade Goody: 'I fear I have just days to live' - Exclusive

Brave Jade Goody was last night desperately trying to bring forward the christening of her two sons... because she fears she won’t live long enough to see the planned ceremony next Saturday.

The cancer-ravaged star woke up in excruciating pain yesterday after she was transferred to a hospice, and told friends: “I’m not going to make it to the weekend.”

The mum-of-two originally wanted her boys – Bobby, five, and four-year-old Freddie – christened in a local church before throwing a giant childrens’ party.

But she is now keen to rush it forward and would settle for the ceremony to be held at her bedside as early as possible.

A friend of Jade’s told the Sunday Mirror last night: “The courage Jade is showing really beggars belief.

“She’s been in utter pain and at times is extremely anxious – yet she’s being typically selfless and can only think about what’s right for her boys.”

The dying star, 27, was taken from her home in Upshire, Essex, to the St Clare Hospice on Friday evening after strong painkillers made her hallucinate.

Friends also say she did not want her sons to see her in such a state.

The boys were yesterday being cared for by their father Jeff Brazier, who was in Manchester hosting The X Factor tour. Tonight, he appears at Wembley Arena and the nationwide tour won’t end until March 25.

Jade is determined to be out of the hospice and back home by tomorrow and was last night said to be feeling “a lot brighter” after receiving treatment in the hospice.

The christening itself, which will follow a traditional Church of England ceremony, is expected to be carried out by Bishop Jonathan Blake, who blessed Jade and husband Jack Tweed’s wedding last Sunday.

The bishop told the Sunday Mirror: “The christening can happen anywhere, inside or outside, there are no restrictions. It can even be carried out in the hospice, if that’s where Jade wants it. It would not matter one iota if she is bedridden.

“The family have asked me to keep quiet about the ceremony they want and I must respect their privacy. She knows I am there for her when she needs me.”

Jade had a peaceful night’s sleep on Friday but then woke up with searing pains. The friend added: “She no doubt feels weaker than she did this time last week and knows there is no time to waste.

“By Saturday afternoon, she was feeling much brighter and was concentrating on the christening party for the boys. She wants to make it special for them and their friends, even if she does have to bring it forward.”

Jade has also been forced to start making heartbreaking decisions over funeral plans, and has told her family she wants to be buried rather than cremated.

“It’s difficult for her family, particularly her mum Jackiey who’s been with her all the time, to hear Jade talking about this kind of thing,” added the friend.

“She also has raised the need to have a face-to-face conversation with her boys’ dad Jeff over caring for the boys when she’s gone.

“But she hasn’t been able to yet, as he’s been so busy working on The X Factor tour.

“The fact she’s confronting all these issues head-on shows unbelievable courage.”

Her granddad John Caddock, 69, from Bermondsey, South London, said: “It’s heartbreaking. It’s a terrible time for us.”

He said he and his wife Sylvia, 76, were planning to see Jade as soon as Jade’s mum Jackiey Budden, 51, told them their granddaughter was well enough.

“Sylvia and I want to go and see her but we’re waiting here until we get a call. All we can do is hope. I would like to say we’re really grateful for all the messages of support from people who have been wishing her well.”

Jade told her mum she was considering moving into the hospice permanently so her boys don’t have to see her health worsen.

“She wants the boys to remember her as their healthy mum, and not bedridden and pumped full of drugs,” said the pal.

Yesterday, Jade’s husband Jack Tweed, 21, had a session at a tanning salon after leaving her bedside.

He had been driven to the hospice by his mother Mary in her green Mini at 1.30pm, and stayed for four hours. He was still wearing his prison tag, a condition of being released early following his conviction for attacking a teenager with a golf club. Jade’s friend and personal trainer Kevin Adams also visited with two of Jade’s girl pals.

After the visit, a friend drove Jack in a white Mercedes to the Tanners salon in Chignall, Essex, 10 miles away. He spent 20 minutes inside a tanning cubicle and was driven home to nearby Buckhurst Hill, arriving at 6.45pm, just 15 minutes before his 7pm curfew.

Jade is believe to have told Jack last week she thinks he should make more of an effort to get to see her earlier in the day. He has to be back at his family home in Buckhurst Hill, Essex, by 7pm because of his bail conditions – but he can go out from 7am if he wants.

A pal said: “Every second when they can be together is precious.

“Jade wants to be with Jack as much as possible... and she’s made him aware of that.” Jack, meanwhile, is upset that his his bail conditions have not been totally removed but he has been told they will be suspended during Jade’s final hours.

Yesterday, about 250 people took part in a 1.6mile walk in support of Jade and to raise money for her children in Loughton, Essex.

But neighbour Brad Porrett, 51, who had a blazing row on Friday with Jade over a shared gate at their homes, refused to apologise last night. His brother-in-law said: “He feels there is nothing to apologise for. It has all been blown out of all proportion.”

The row erupted when Jade, Jack and Kevin Adams walked to Kevin’s Mercedes to go to the hospice. After Jack explained where they were going, Brad is said to have replied: “Good. At least I’ll get some peace and quiet.”

The group then began arguing about how their shared electronic gate was being blocked by photographers.

Jade, cleary upset and on the verge of tears, screamed: “I’ll be dead in a month. Leave me alone, Brad. Leave me alone.”

On a better note, Jade’s spokesman Max Clifford said last night: “I’ve spoken to her – she had a good night and she is a lot brighter. She is looking forward to the christening.

“She was concentrating on that today and tomorrow and will go home on Monday.”

He added: “Some of her friends have been to see her, including a couple of her bridesmaids. Jack has been in and has stayed and the children are going to see her.

“Of course, the boys don’t know it’s a hospice. They just think mummy is in hospital.”